I'm sorry. truly sorry. I've been suckish this day. My attitude sucks. Really sucks. Sometimes i feel that I'm not right for you. Cause I've been hurting you a lot of time. But i try to think the positive. Almost everyday is a bad day. But 'we apologized and then we compromised'. Cause nothing will be solve without any apology. I'm truly sorry for my bad attitude and suckish behaviour. Yes you say all those words. I try to change, for the better, but it all seems so hard. Some times you gotta understand my situation ya'know. It's not like every time I'm happy. When you talk about all those people, i do get jealous, but i don't like to show it. I try to keep it but i can't. Cause you always got me. No matter what, you never fails to say, 'i know you're jealous.' And I'll just kept quite. Cause i don't want you to know. I hate to feel jealous. Now you know why i kept quite every time. That's not the only reason. There's others. And you could ask me personally. There's more to talk about, but I'm too tired. I got to have some rest.

I'm so sorry Muhammad Zuraidi Bin Zailan Kamauddin.

I'm everything I am Because You Loved Me.




Its like early in the morning now and my sis is still on the phone gossiping about her schoolmates. Can say that she is kecoh. Like her big sister(me). NO NO ! She is more kecoh on the phone now. Got to go. Goodnight Earthlings.

hey world !

it's been a long time i blog this crap.

firstly i wanna say,

I LOVE YOU ZURAIDI !

and secondly,

I MISS YOU GIRLS !

lama tak lepak dengan kamu semua.

thats all yeah.

and i wanna say thank you to someone.

the reason i put this pair of shoe in my post is because.........

zuraidi bought for me !

nice right ? ^^

thank you love !

thank you so much.

appreciate it a lot.

hey there !

today i got to admit it's kinda BOOOORING !

went to my brother's friend wedding(taufik punya abang kahwin).

then planed to go Suntec City.

but ayah was to lazy. -.-

and it was raining.

so went home sweet home.

watch Honey at my lappy.

my brother's hard disk has lots of new and interesting movie yaw !

tak payah buang duit tengok movie.
haiya !!
got to admit i miss Brown Eyes.
felt like we didn't met for a week or so.

but it's okay.

he's coming back home tomorrow.

hope you have a safe trip home yaw !

and yeah Friday morning send him to the Airport.

met his mom, dad, kakak, abang ipar and finally met his sister and haikel.

it's a wonderful morning.



the phone stood still...

went for TPRWAKS from 16-18 November.

it was freaking fun !

all the PL are so HOT and CUTE !

can't wait to join Temasek Polytechnic !

first day- get to know each other

Hip Hop Dancing

cheer

games

second day- went to different schools

cheer

TPRAWKS challenge

TP Mass Dance

games

third day - went to different school

cheer

games
JAM and HOP
TP Mass Dance !

and and BUBYE TO ALL!!!

PUNK RED !

ready to RAWK !

anak HAWA !

hey, remember this?
i was freaking bored, so took it.
i know its like so lame. -.-
and the background is so what the hell.
don't blame me, it's abang's room.
so yeah, today planned to search for job with Ayu.
but it was canceled cause her dad just came back.
so now sitting at home facing the lappy.
going out soon to meet Memel.
miss that small lil bitch!


And yeah!
yesterday went out.
had a great time spending time with you know who.
went to Escape Theme Park.
guess how many rides we took?
total of three!
Escape is getting BORING!!!
we only ride the Go Kart and two rides of the Pirate.
pathetic i can say. i mean the rides.
its too pathetic that we only ride three.
but overall it was great.

Right Brown Eyes?

Hi Brown Eyes.
What i'm gonna say now it's all true.
From the bottom of my heart.
Believe me or not i already forget him.
The true love is now you.
Like i said i don't wish history to repeat itself.
What happen during the past is just the past.
It's true that i don't give second chances.
But now my heart says that i don't wish to leave you.
Thats how strong my love is towards you.
I hope you keep your words by not leaving me.
I'm scared to loose someone like you.
I really do.
Every time i finish praying, i will always pray the best for you.
You are the only guy who knew the true meaning of love.
I really appreciate your care towards me.
No matter what happens Zuraidi, I Love You.


You fill up my heart,
and you're my everything,
although it seems hard,
but you make it strong like a shoe string.

FINALLY O-LEVELS ARE OVER!!
yeah, you'll see most of the blogs will update the same thing.

'O-Levels are over and blah blah blah....'

it's a relief knowing that i don't need to hold any papers or books to study or cracking my brain to solve problems for maths science and whatever.

the thing is i don't need to study anymore!

i just need to concentrate on having a partime job to fill up part of my daily life.

my brother had recommended me to work at his work place at Coffee Bean, $4.00/hour.

but the thing is, ITS FREAKING FAR!

its at Somerset, Paragon.

not only far but the working hours its like fulltime.

can die of working everyday.

therefore me and Ayu go online, JobStreet, to apply a job.

John Little thingy at Singapore Expo.

as a sales girl, $5.50/hr.

much better huh?

hope i get that job.

if i get it you peeps can drop by and say HI!

thats all and walk away.

so yeah, currently there's no permanent job.

merempat lah aku gini!

by the way the yeloow card above was from Sarah Grace.

THANKS SAPORK!

i was surfing the net.

looking for a brand new shoe.

and i found this BEAUTIFUL shoe.

Dustin Dollin Wool DD-66, Women from VANS.

i admire it so much!

imagine me wearing this cool shoe!

it's made out of wool and there's my favourite colour on it.

FREAKING NICE!!

but it doesn't seem to ship in to Singapore.

what a waste!! i really want it!!!

WTF AFIQAH!

don't be so desperate like other girls.

there's much more nicer shoes waiting for you to spend and waste your money on.
it will be just a dream then.

nice shot huh?

just so you know this is specially created for you.

here it goes. hope you like it.

You shower me with care.

for all this while,

the stories we share.

like fixing a row of tiles.

The love you show.

was never a threat,

you make it grow,
before it's dead.

I just want you to know,

before it's to late,

that i always love you,

and it's great. :)

i make it up myself.

no copying or pasting.

i hope you appreciate it.

and lastly zuraidi,

I Love You,

like how i love ayah and ibu.

Brown Eyes.