my feelings for you had faded. like my front door. i hate to feel this way. i don't wanna loose someone like you. but how i feel now seems like it couldn't change no more. don't ask me why. i just don't know why. every time the phone stood still, i will wonder what you're doing right now. its not that i don't wish to text you, but I'm kinda busy nowadays. i don't know what we really are. we don't have any status or anything. if you do have feelings towards me, you will definitely ask me for a relationship. but we've been friend for almost a year. I'm not like really want you to be my guy. i don't really expect that. i just treat you like a special person in life. but now i don't think so. whenever you say you miss me, i will think twice to say it back or not. if i don't, you will definitely be mad. and i really hate that feeling of yours. sometimes i feel lonely inside. its not that i desperately want you to text me or need someone to text me every single minute. i too get irritated. yes its true when you say I've change towards you. the way i answer you, the way i treat you, the way how i feel for you. its sad to say this. tears run down my chick when i type this. sometimes i feel that you're cheating on me. and i know i should not think that way. theres a saying, think positive instead of the negative. but I'm a person who always think the negative. you're so far from me. its not that i really know who you're friends are. i don't even know who is you're best friend. that makes me hard to trust you. do i? I've heard stories bout you. but i just throw it out of my mind. i try to think positive. if somehow you read this.... well i don't know what to say. I'm too coward to say this to you. I'm afraid how'd you react. I'm afraid of you! i need help to overcome this problem. would you help me solve this problem friend?